Journal Entry - Monday, May 19, 2025



Invest Baby!


In these troubled economic times, thanks to an administration that doesn’t really understand what it’s doing, it turns out the best investment is buying a bottle of bourbon. Buy one, put it on a shelf, and keep it for 20 years. Better yet, leave as part of your estate. (It would be better than leaving my bicycles.) The value of a typical bottle of bourbon is appreciating at a rate of 8% annually. That means a $40 bottle of bourbon today, should net your beneficiaries about $186.46. Can you ask for a better investment than that?



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Journal Entry - Sunday, May 18, 2025



AI Telemarketing


Thank goodness AI Telemarketing software can’t tell when I’m lying. I got a call today from an AI telemarketing device. I think I’ll refer to such calls as coming from an “AITD,” just for fun. (I always wanted to be an acronym developer.) The software wanted to sell me a Medicare health plan (probably an Advantage plan since those are struggling right now). The first question the software asked me was, “do you have Medicare Part A and B coverage,” to which I replied, “I don’t know.” The AITD then asked me if I could give my age, to which I said, “105.” It very politely then said I don’t think it could help me, and it hung up. (The statement was polite enough, the hang-up not so much.)

It’s clear that AI hasn’t reached the point yet where it can tell if I’m lying or not. I expect voice inflection, maybe even embedded neuro sensors, will probably be used very soon to tell if a person is lying. When that day comes, it won’t be fun to answer the phone anymore.



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Journal Entry - Saturday, May 17, 2025



How to Have a Phone Conversation


The first thing to mention is, when someone calls you, you have an obligation to pick up the phone. I start with this rule since I have a habit of not always following my own advice. The corollary to this rule is when someone asks you to call them, it’s bad form to wait two or three days before you get back to them. If they call you before you have gotten back to them, you know they are a better friend to you than you are to them. Now that we have these ground rules out of the way, we can get down to some finer points.

The next first thing you should always do is say “Hello.” That part most of us can manage (yours truly included). After that, the outcome of the conversation, good or bad, is up to whomever dialed the numbers on the phone.

If there is no particular reason for your call other than to say hi and chit-chat for a bit, have at it. The chance of running afoul of your listener in that case is slim. If there is a specific reason for your call beware of two things:

  1. Does your listener want to talk to you about your subject? It can be hard to know the answer to that in advance, yet, if you stop and think about whom you are talking to before you place the call, the answer to that might be clearer than you would guess.
  2. Open the call by not going directly to your purpose, instead try and relax your listener and place them in a frame of mind that makes it easy for them to engage with you before you get around to your subject. Bonus: you may get a “volunteer” answer to your question without having to initiate the dialogue yourself.

If you have made it through the first two steps and your subject still has not come up, then it is probably time to launch into the reason for your call. This is where things can go sideways. You always have to make sure your subject is one your listener is willing to engage in. That requires listening and interpreting the verbal signals you are receiving. If you detect any hesitancy at all, it’s probably best to simply bail-out of the conversation by steering it back to chit-chat mode and leaving the matter you wanted to discuss to a future opportunity.

I am writing this piece of instruction for myself.

I often fail to be a good listener. I often hurry to get my two cents in and I don’t pay enough attention to the other person. You’re never too old to change, but it does require a bit of reflection and work. I shouldn’t just pick up the phone and dial, I should be thinking about my listener and putting myself in their shoes before I take the plunge.



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Journal Entry - Friday, May 16, 2025



DESI


The Dark Energy Spectrographic Instrument consortium, contrary to what “Dark Energy” might lead you to suspect, is not a consortium studying Donald Trump’s corruption and public utterances, they are a group of researchers studying Dark Energy (hence the name). Don’t be confused, Dark Energy and Dark Matter are very different things. (I’m not here to explain Dark Matter, that is up to the reader.) Dark Energy is suspected of being the driving force behind the expansion of the universe. There’s just one problem, the DESI consortium is postulating that the amount of Dark Energy driving the expansion of the universe is degrading. This will eventually lead to the contraction (i.e. degradation) of the universe.

There is an amazing correlation here between astrophysics and politics. Donald Trump’s “Dark Energy” will eventually lead to the degradation of America. It may take some time, but the smart money is on the contraction of America occurring before the contraction of the universe.

On a slightly different chord.

The ancient Athenian democracy is considered to have lasted just over 180 years. We have them beat, but that really doesn’t mean a lot. Clearly democracies are not a given. Preserving a democracy is a difficult task. The two most important factors for preservation of a democracy are a strong middle class and strong support for the rule of law. The Republican Party is destroying the former. Donald Trump has been destroying the latter since Jan 6, 2021.

It’s time to get our shit together.



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Journal Entry - Thursday, May 15, 2025



Progressivism And Religion


When it comes to religions in America, I am probably an anomaly. I left the Methodist Church, the Mormon Church, and the Catholic Church because they were not progressive enough.

When it comes to who will inherit the Kingdom of Heaven, given that inheritance is real and that inheritance is open to everyone, it will certainly not be one and only one particular faith, and it will likely not be the uncaring rich and those who espouse a nationalist philosophy to the exclusion of people that don’t look like they do; it will be the poor, the sick, the oppressed, the exploited, the displaced and the rejected.

It is a puzzle to me why it is so hard to remember those ideas.



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Journal Entry - Wednesday, May 14, 2025



Writing


I was sitting at the bar in my favorite tap room, writing in my journal. (I recently learned on Instagram that men do write in journals. I learned this from an ad selling question-and-answer journals for men.) The bartender looked at me and asked if I was a writer, obviously he hasn’t seen the same ad on Instagram that I’ve seen.

Let me clarify. My journal is comprised of blank pages, that’s why my writing wanders a lot, and doesn’t answer any questions, but the bartender’s question did make me ask myself, am I a writer?

Honestly, no. That said, I spend a lot of time in the pursuit of writing. Not just in the aforementioned journal, but also here. I have asked myself many times, would I like to be a writer (i.e., author). The answer is always yes. I want to play the guitar too but have had even less success at that. To be an author, I think you have to feel a book inside of you and be able to reach in and pull it out. I don’t seem to have that, no book, so no reaching-in and pulling-out. All of this is by way of confession I suppose, but there is one thing I can say for sure. I enjoy this, the task of writing and trying to communicate something of myself that others (lucky or unlucky) can get a glimpse of. Will all of this someday lead to something not resembling a 300 word monologue? I don’t know. If that day ever comes, you will see it here. Please don’t hold your breath.



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Journal Entry - Tuesday, May 13, 2025



Freedom Hourglass


Our freedoms are being systematically taken away from us. When I say “freedom,” I don’t mean the freedom to persecute people that don’t look like you (white, male, moneyed) or the freedom to do whatever you want regardless of the law. I’m talking about the freedom to enjoy due process under the law, the freedom to disagree with your elected officials should you choose to do that, the freedom to choose your elected officials without hindrance and to have your ballot counted at election time.

It appears that the freedom of due process and the right to free and fair elections are being undermined. I fear for what that holds in store for us as a nation.

The Freedom Hourglass



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Journal Entry - Monday, May 12, 2025



Cry, Why?


I cry because I love you.



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Journal Entry - Sunday, May 11, 2025



Cry, Please.


I asked my doctor, “why do I find myself crying sometimes when I hear a beautiful song or see a beautiful landscape?” She told me, “it’s because you’re alive.” If she’s right then I’m more alive than I was a year ago…

I suppose that’s a good thing, but it does leave me wondering, why the change? I haven’t come up with an answer for that yet. Aging? Hormones? I suppose that’s the simple answer. Perhaps as we look out from where we are and see fewer days ahead of us than we see behind us, we get emotional. Maybe. I’m not buying that completely. I think something fundamental is occurring. That’s what I like to think. A new awareness. The realization of how lucky I am. A realization that every minute is precious.

Whatever the reason. I believe I am better for this. My eyes have been “opened.” This could be a calling, a nudge, that I need to get going. I need to start looking at the world differently, with more appreciation and more caring.



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Journal Entry - Saturday, May 10, 2025



Anger And Meanness


I wanted to start this entry with the title “Anger And Hate,” but I thought that language might be a bit too strong to use when treating the following. The more I think about it, the more I think it probably applies, at least in the minds of many antagonists (not myself).

I never in my lifetime thought I would see so much anger, so much meanness shown by so many people on a daily basis in our society.

Please take a moment to stop and think about that.

Now that you have pondered that conjecture, think about this, all of this is the result of one man, and some angry sycophants.

None of this is what the universe, “god”, our evolutionary birthright, wants for us. Quite the opposite. We are our best selves as individuals and as a society when we show each other respect in both our words and our actions. What is happening in America saddens me. It wouldn’t be en exaggeration to say that sometimes I even get angry — although I am fighting that. I’m feeling this way largely because I don’t know what I can do personally to end this madness. I am resolved to at least not fall into the trap that is being set for us… The trap of taking sides.



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Journal Entry - Friday, May 9, 2025



Central Oregon


I’ve never really felt at home anywhere, until I arrived in Central Oregon. The high plains are amazing, and the people make me feel welcome. I’m happy here.



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Journal Entry - Thursday, May 8, 2025



Greatness


Trump is taking the world’s perception of us as trustworthy and dependable and lighting it on fire… and he calls that greatness.



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Journal Entry - Wednesday, May 7, 2025



How Emotionally Mature Am I?


I just finished reading the book by the same title. I’m pleased to report, although not perfect, it turns out I am more-or-less emotionally mature.

The book presents 42 questions designed to measure your level of emotional maturity. Each question has two possible answers. You receive five points for a “correct” answer (the answer that reflects maturity) and one point for an “incorrect” answer. I found myself sometimes answering wrong, but leaning toward the correct answer, in that case I gave myself 2-1/2 points. If I answered correctly but judged myself to be not quite in that ballpark, again I scored that as 2-1/2 as opposed to a 5. Out of the 42 questions, I only scored myself in the middle on 8 questions.

A score of 161 to 210: suggests emotional maturity.
A score of 82 to 160: suggests partial emotional maturity.
A score of 0 to 81: your gonna need work.

Note: There is no relationship between an I.Q. of 81 and an E.M. score of 81, but research is ongoing.

My Score: 174

Do I take all of this with a grain of salt? Absolutely. To truly judge if this is a solid predictor or not, you have to look at the questions you answered incorrectly and ask, “does that somehow apply to me?” The answer I gave in several cases was “yes.” So where does that leave me? Nowhere really, but I’m going to accept my score, if for no other reason than bragging rights.



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Journal Entry - Tuesday, May 6, 2025



Proper Passenger Psychology


I am finding it increasingly hard to relax in a car when I am not driving. I admit, that’s a psychological problem I need to resolve, but I can’t work on that if I don’t arrive in one piece…



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Journal Entry - Monday, May 5, 2025



May 5th


Happy Sink-Hole de My-Ohhh!

You may be wondering what that means. I did too when it came to me. After a bit of absent minded reflection, I came up with the following.

When you’re out wondering around in your truck, or possibly hiking or mountain biking, and you hit a sink-hole, also known as a pot hole, the best you can do is shrug it off. Perhaps, if you need to exclaim something out loud in frustration, it’s probably best to simply let out a loud “My-Ohhh” and keep going.



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Journal Entry - Sunday, May 4, 2025



Overland Cat


He’s an excellent companion on the road. He sleeps on the seat next to me and occasionally crawls onto my lap for a bit of attention. When we are offroad he’s very engaged in where we are going. He will stand on my lap with his front paws on the window, carefully observing the terrain. He doesn’t seem to mind the bouncing.



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Journal Entry - Saturday, May 3, 2025



Happy Birthday


A Happy Birthday to all of you born on May 3rd. You know who you are, and by the way, thank you for being a part of my life (those of you I have met).

I look forward to many more wonderful years sharing this journey with you (both of you).



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Journal Entry - Friday, May 2, 2025



School Busses


If School Busses are passing you on the right, you are in the wrong lane. Yes, naturally there is a story behind that, but there is no need to share that here…



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Journal Entry - Thursday, May 1, 2025



May Day


Today I’m going to celebrate the labor movement, a.k.a. International Workers’ Day. If that’s not your deal, then perhaps celebrating the ancient spring agricultural festival is more to your liking, both are traditional May Day activities. I’m also choosing to avoid writing anything political today because the digital panopticon is coming, when it arrives, sooner than we would like it to, I want the AI subversive identification filters to find one page on this site that it can’t use as the basis for a criminal indictment against me… assuming indictments are still needed…

Yes. That is political…



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Reading Log - April 2025. #2



“Beartown” by Fredrik Backman, Translated by Neil Smith


The author does a clever job of setting up the reader to expect the book to end with a murder. The balance of the story presents the evidence why we should or should not accept that conclusion as postulated. The book ends dramatically and has a satisfying conclusion. Well written and entertaining but a bit long.


If you are honest, people may deceive you.
Be honest anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfishness.
Be kind anyway.
All the good you do today will be forgotten by others tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

This strikes me as beautiful.


A simple truth, repeated as often as it is ignored, is that if you tell a child it can do absolutely anything, or it can’t do anything at all, you will in all likelihood be proven right.

So true.


The only thing the sport gives us is moments. But what the he’ll is life, Peter, apart from moments?

That’s not just true of sports, it’s true of all life’s events.


The first thing that happens in a conflict is that we choose a side, because that’ easier than trying to hold two thoughts in our heads at the same time. The second thing is that we seek out facts that confirm what we want to believe.

That’s where intellectual debate enters, or should enter. We have too little of that don’t we?


Who would you pull out of the freezing water first if the lifeboat only had a limited number of places?

Your family.


What is community? It is the sum total of our choices.

What is friendship, family, community, country? Same as above.


One day very soon everyone around them will simply pretend that this has never happened. Because the family does not lose.

The quote is about a rich influential family. This is the problem with money, it can find more ways to prevent losing than those without money can.



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Reading Log - April 2025, #1



“The Paris Library” by Janet Skeslien Charles




Odile’s sister Lily.

I tried to say I would, but fear stole my voice. After a long moment, she pushed my body from hers and looked at me. Trapped in Mom’s mournful stare, I remembered things she’d said: Babies sleep through the love. A gaggle of geese, a murder of crows. People are awkward, they don’t know what to do or say. Don’t hold it against them; we never know what’s in their hearts.


Odile.

I had learned that love was not patient, love was not kind. Love was conditional. The people closest to you could turn their backs on you, saying goodbye for something that seemed like nothing. You could only depend on yourself.


Odile reflecting on Lawrence and Margaret.

There was a peculiar current in the air. He’d gone from charming to condescending; she’d become wooden. I remembered Maman’s advice to cousin Clotilde: Make the courtship last as long as you can. Once you marry everything changes. Was this what Maman had meant?


Odile decides to stay in Paris after the Nazis occupy the city.

Remaining had bee the right choice. If her parents had taught her one thing, it was to stand her ground, whether dealing with a malicious schoolmate or the domineering cataloger act the Library of Congress. You’re nothing without principles. Nowhere without ideals. No one without courage.


Odile talking to Lily.

Well, ma grande, that was the first lesson I learned as a young wife. Sometimes, when you win, you lose. I got rid of the stuffed head—the garbage man picked it up when Buck was at work. But he was angry for a good long while.


Professor Cohen to Odile. Odile is upset with her father.

Your father’s old, he won’t change. And dogs don’t have kittens, so you’re as stubborn as he. The only thing you can change is the way you see him.


A passage for its sheer beauty, Boris is the reference librarian at The Paris Library. He is shot in his home by Gestapo. I read it three times.

He didn’t remember falling, didn’t feel his head hit the floor. He sensed Anna beside him, saw the red run down his shirt over her ashen hands. He heard the Nazis shout. It was all too much. Boris longed to slip up the spiral staircase, to walk along secluded rows of books, to lose himself in the sweet quiet of the Afterlife.


The novel has a beautiful ending. The story movingly describes the true nature of friendship, how easily it can be lost, how important it is to cherish it and how important it is to hold on to it.

Don’t listen when someone tells you not to bother a person—reach out to make a friend. People don’t always know what to do or say. Try not to hold that against them; you never know what’s in their heart. Don’t be afraid to be different. Stand your ground. During bad times, remember that nothing lasts forever. Accept people for who they are, not for who you want them to be.



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Journal Entry - Wednesday, April 30, 2025



A Piece Of Wisdom


“The fool doth think he is wise, but the wise man knows himself to be a fool.”

(Shakespeare actually stole that from Seneca.)

I know I’m a fool. Name me a bunch of people that think themselves wise and I’ll give you an “Administration.”



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Journal Entry - Tuesday, April 29, 2025



Knowledge


It is important to acquire knowledge, but it is more important to acquire knowledge around knowledge (sometimes referred to as wisdom).

We are living in an age where some knowledge is enough for a few to make them think they know everything.



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Journal Entry - Monday, April 28, 2025



Tired


I’m tired of tyrant talk. Every preachy word seems calculated to win a vote from some group of voters. I have yet to hear a cogent explanation reinforcing a policy decision. It’s clear, at least to me that there is no policy behind the policy decisions. Correction: The policy behind the policy decision is the aggrandizement of power and wealth and political control.



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Journal Entry - Sunday, April 27, 2025



I Live In Fear


I live in fear that Trump will find a way to serve beyond the constitutional limit of two terms.

I saw a bumper sticker that said, “don’t blame me, I voted for Trump.” I live in fear that person will never understand their culpability.

I live in fear I will have to live with my children. I love them, but they don’t deserve that.

I live in fear America as I know it, as I was taught it, as I have experienced it, is gone. I live in fear my children won’t the same experience I have had.

All I see around me is greed and self interest, by the highest, most privileged people in our country. It feels like there is nothing I can do to change that.

My hope is that, in my lifetime, I can live again without fearing what the future holds for us.



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