Wednesday April 26, 2023 (Journal Entry)
I have been doing daily affirmations. Written in my journal. I’ve been doing it for a while and I’m starting to like it. I’m not sure if it is sinking in or not, I think it is. I can tell it is going to take a long time before I truly believe it, maybe the rest of my life. That’s ok, it doesn’t hurt me to write them every morning…
The first affirmation is:
I am a badass. I love myself. I have enough love for everyone.
This one makes me feel good. I am a badass in a lot of ways. I can ride my bicycle across the country and I can out ski most ski instructors that are my age. That’s pretty good I’d say. Having enough love for everyone is a bit trickier. When a truck driver pulls into my lane on the freeway and the rear of his trailer almost hits the front of my Tacoma, it’s a bit difficult to have love for him. This happened recently and I recall passing him and letting him know my displeasure with my horn. Probably not a “loving” thing to do I suppose.
The second affirmation is:
I can do anything. I will allow the Universe to heal me.
This one is a bit more abstract. I realize I can’t do anything, that is a bit naive. I suppose the idea here is it doesn’t hurt to try. I will allow the universe to heal me is a little vague. When I first started writing that, I literally meant heal me. (I was experiencing back pain at the time.) On reflection, I know the Universe probably is not going to intervene in managing my pain level, not that the Universe doesn’t care, it’s just that the Universe probably doesn’t have time for that. I think what I really mean by that is I will listen more closely to the Universe… So I have modified the second affirmation slightly, I now write:
I can do anything. I will allow the Universe to heal me and guide me.